If you want to get to know me, 

ask me about my mother 

I will tell you that I don't know her, 

because of her humanity

It is unavoidable to fall in love with her 

and once you get to know me 

because of my humanity

you'll only resent her


In this case...

love and resentment are synonymous 

to one another. 

they are the same note on the piano she plays, 

she hums,

a symphony titled love and resentment


I was taught that God is love 

my mother taught me that 

there is God in the love we cultivate, 


Im no gardener, i'm simply a flower in need of a gardener

a rose who grew from concrete, 

still needs, 

still should,

be cultivated

still needs to be watered, 

still should be kissed by the sun

and at times, held up from the concrete 


my mother has a garden, full of flowers

but I am just a rose who grew from the concrete.


there comes a time where the desire to be loved overrides 

the desire to love

one's self

and the symphony and love and resentment continues

they are the same note on the piano she plays, 

she hums,

a symphony titled love and resentment


If you want to get to know me, 

ask me about my father 

I will tell you that I know him like the back of my hand.

I will tell you that regardless of my mother’s humanity 

It is unavoidable to resent him

and once you get to know me 

because of my humanity

you'll only lover her

it is unavoidable


In this case...

love and resentment are synonymous 

to one another. 

they are the same note on the piano she plays, 

she hums,

a symphony titled love and resentment


I was taught that God is love 

my mother taught me that 

there is God in the love we cultivate, 


but what happens when the garden she cultivated is a field of resentment 

my mother has a garden, full of flowers

but I am just a rose who grew from the concrete.


In this case...

love and resentment are synonymous 

to one another. 

they are the same note on the piano she plays, 

she hums,

a symphony titled love and resentment


and I danced and danced and danced and danced and danced

in hopes that one day the symphony 

would just stop.