'Make[s] art in an effort to die as slowly as possible'
Thank you @ground.jordan for those words which made me feel, which made me feel seen, which made me feel heard
and triggered those words.
I...
I have know darkness before being
blinded by the light
the darkness is what
birthed the light to begin with
didn’t you know?
forgetting that although God said let there be light,
darkness stood the test of time
by existing before the divine
gave it breath.
and as I am standing
in my darkness
reminiscing on my existence,
I’ve realized that despite the adversities,
I have stood the test of time
the divine didn’t need to give it breath
my darkness as always been my companion
I have drowned
before I could...
breathe
it is where I meet darkness for the first time
deep under the sea
she was cold
like my father
and she made me uncomfortable
like my mother
and was filled with bravery
like those who saw light in death
rather than life without freedom
the darkness is what
birthed the light to begin with
didn’t you know?
forgetting that although God said let there be light
darkness stood the test of time
by existing before the divine
gave it breath.
and as I am standing
in my darkness
reminiscing on my existence,
now that I know life
now that I can breathe
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I’ve realized that the ocean
who introduced me the darkness
is much like a woman’s womb
It creates light from the darkness
as God said — and so it is
now that I know life
now that I can breathe
I make art in an effort to die as slowly as possible
it’s the only thing that makes sense such as experiencing darkness before light